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Complicated Feelings – #QuoteQuest

posted by LSB September 1, 2020 4 Comments
Complicated Feelings.....

For someone quite emotional, I can be damn bloody good at hiding them.

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“Taureans are born between April 21 and May 21, and belong to the Earth element of the zodiac (along with Virgo and Capricorn). The Earth sign collective are practical, stoic, determined, ambitious, and materialistic.

Taurus are famous for their stubbornness, but there’s more to them then that… they’re a bit of dark horse. Ruled by the planet Venus, they share her traits of beauty, artistry, hedonism, and a love of luxury and comfort. Taureans are actually pretty good people to be around.”

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Stoic – 1. a person who can endure pain or hardship without showing their feelings or complaining.

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I seem to be built that way. I grew up in a tough environment – I learned to hide my feelings. I got bullied in school – I learned to hide my feelings. I fell in lust, it wasn’t reciprocated – I learned to hide my feelings. I could go on and on – but do I need to? The pattern I have shown you sums it up….

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I am good at hiding feelings…..

 

…..except when I am not.

 

………I can explode. Without unrelated reasons.

 

Which as you can imagine isn’t the best kinda way to be but I can’t be any other way except me and this is who I am.

I love uncontrollably. I am an all or nothing kinda gal. Oh god, how I wish I wasn’t… Sometimes I wish my heart stayed where it should be instead of on my sleeve.

It will take you A LOT to completely get my heart but once you have, it is yours. I have ripped it out, wrapped in a bow and I hope you will mind it because as hard-faced as I can be, I am delicate.

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I am all those traits in the quote above except one. I have never been materialistic. I am not a money-driven person. Nor do I need all the things. 

materialistic – excessively concerned with material possessions; money-oriented.”

That has never been nor will never be me. The only thing even slightly materialistic about me is I hoard memories. I keep all the occasion cards, the cinema stubs, the tag off the chocolates we shared as when we went for a walk together by the lake, the travel tickets from our first holiday…. so if memory hoarding counts as materialistic then I take it back. But money… while money makes the world go round, it doesn’t make me tick.

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I am soft.

I am delicate.

I wear my heart on my sleeve.

I will adore and worship you.

I am emotional…..

But I am yours.

 

 

“But feelings can’t be ignored, no matter how unjust or ungrateful they seem.” ~Anne Frank

 

 
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4 Comments

Floss September 2, 2020 at 8:29 am

I can relate to this so much. There are, I think, fewer reasons for me to be this way, I don’t have a lot of the history that yourself and others do to explain why I am the way I am, but it is what it is and I felt every word of what you wrote x

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SoundMindPlay September 2, 2020 at 8:25 pm

“That has never been nor will never be me. The only thing even slightly materialistic about me is I hoard memories. I keep all the occasion cards, the cinema stubs, the tag off the chocolates we shared as when we went for a walk together by the lake, the travel tickets from our first holiday…. so if memory hoarding counts as materialistic then I take it back. But money… while money makes the world go round, it doesn’t make me tick.” — I thought I was the only one who did this. I totally save and hoard every letter, every little thing of value in my life to keep it tucked away.

Taurus here, it generally fits me besides the materialistic. I’m not either, I don’t like fine things, or comforts, or any of that shit. I am good with money, but because my folks weren’t.

I blow the fuck up when emotions break through. Stoic, I forgot that word and how it fits. Hid emotions well, I’ve been accussed and I am proud of this fact i’m hard to read and always have been.

Related to so much of this, and the heart, you don’t get it. But if you do, you got it.

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E.L. Byrne September 5, 2020 at 5:35 pm

I have been known to stay quiet and also to blow up… It’s interesting to think of all these things. Thanks for sharing your story… 🙂

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Bee September 10, 2020 at 6:14 pm

I’m like you, sensitive and feel my emotions hard but I wish I didn’t. I’m not a sentimental person though, collecting bits and bobs just doesn’t make me tick. It’s probably a good job because my OH is. One hoarder is enough in this house!

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