For someone quite emotional, I can be damn bloody good at hiding them.
“Taureans are born between April 21 and May 21, and belong to the Earth element of the zodiac (along with Virgo and Capricorn). The Earth sign collective are practical, stoic, determined, ambitious, and materialistic.
Taurus are famous for their stubbornness, but there’s more to them then that… they’re a bit of dark horse. Ruled by the planet Venus, they share her traits of beauty, artistry, hedonism, and a love of luxury and comfort. Taureans are actually pretty good people to be around.”
Stoic – 1. a person who can endure pain or hardship without showing their feelings or complaining.
I seem to be built that way. I grew up in a tough environment – I learned to hide my feelings. I got bullied in school – I learned to hide my feelings. I fell in lust, it wasn’t reciprocated – I learned to hide my feelings. I could go on and on – but do I need to? The pattern I have shown you sums it up….
I am good at hiding feelings…..
…..except when I am not.
………I can explode. Without unrelated reasons.
Which as you can imagine isn’t the best kinda way to be but I can’t be any other way except me and this is who I am.
I love uncontrollably. I am an all or nothing kinda gal. Oh god, how I wish I wasn’t… Sometimes I wish my heart stayed where it should be instead of on my sleeve.
It will take you A LOT to completely get my heart but once you have, it is yours. I have ripped it out, wrapped in a bow and I hope you will mind it because as hard-faced as I can be, I am delicate.
I am all those traits in the quote above except one. I have never been materialistic. I am not a money-driven person. Nor do I need all the things.
“materialistic – excessively concerned with material possessions; money-oriented.”
That has never been nor will never be me. The only thing even slightly materialistic about me is I hoard memories. I keep all the occasion cards, the cinema stubs, the tag off the chocolates we shared as when we went for a walk together by the lake, the travel tickets from our first holiday…. so if memory hoarding counts as materialistic then I take it back. But money… while money makes the world go round, it doesn’t make me tick.
I am soft.
I am delicate.
I wear my heart on my sleeve.
I will adore and worship you.
I am emotional…..
But I am yours.
“But feelings can’t be ignored, no matter how unjust or ungrateful they seem.” ~Anne Frank