“Only when we are brave enough to explore the darkness will we discover the infinite power of our light.”
~ Brene Brown
This quote has been sitting in my bank of quotes that I have actually been gathering long before Quote Quest has existed. So many thoughts surrounding so many different topics whirr around my head when I read it. In all honesty, as I sit here on Tuesday afternoon, the day before the quote ends I still am unsure where I want to take my thoughts.
My first thoughts go to my own darkness. I still think we have only really scraped the surface with how deep the dark streak in me runs. I feel like there is more to me I don’t even know yet, let alone actually sharing that side with anyone. I do know all the experiences we have had as a couple together have helped me realise that I want to find out.
I also know I don’t want this with anyone else. I know I don’t want to discover anything else relating to my darkness with anyone else. I guess one could say I am cutting my nose off despite my face, or whatever that old saying is but the truth is I couldn’t ever imagine giving this much of me to anyone else again either. I have found this part of me because I trust the person I am discovering it with. My husband has 110% of me and I can’t even imagine ever allowing myself to be this vulnerable again with someone else.
I do feel though what we have together does bring me light. I could confidently say it has given my OH light too. It has certainly given me an understanding of what I need and it helps me to be free. Being with him and exploring the darkness together has given us both opportunities to learn and explore together.
I can’t say for definite but I don’t think He would want this with anyone else either. I know the open the door we have opened together has made us both vulnerable. We each have peeled back a bit of us, I don’t we ever would share with someone else.
I am His. He is mine. Us together. Free.
Forever exploring the Darkness