Hey lovelies who live in my phone. <3
Yanno, I am actually feeling better taking time away from twitter. I had to log in to reply to DMs but I didn’t check my notifications – so if you tweeted me, I am not intentionally ignoring you… I just haven’t seen them.
This whole shit show regarding my other account had me obsessively checking my account and hoping every time I clicked on my profile, I would hopefully see that restriction had been removed. Removing the app has also removed the possibility of me checking every five minutes.
After I tweeted and wrote this post the other day, I had the realization that I needed to be talking to my husband rather than the rest of the world. We are together a long time… Like if I murdered him chances are I’d be out by now length of time. Sometimes, I tend to let emotions build up and then boom! I explode into a blubbing mess and the other day was one of those days. I have been hiding my feelings from him, not wanting to pressure him or make him feel shit and in return, I pretty much broke myself in the process.
“Without good communication, a relationship is merely a hollow vessel carrying you along on a frustrating journey fraught with the perils of confusion, projection, and misunderstanding.” – Cherie Carter Scott
So I sat him down and I released. I let go of all the shit in my head to the poor man who hadn’t a clue his wife was so sad. We talked and talked and I cried and cried some more.
I have pulled back from my phone, social media, my blog, and have made more time for him. He equally has done the same. We spent the last few days chilled together – me curled beside him on the couch and him reaching over to hold my hand <3. We have been gaming, eating good food and when bedtime comes – we spend time together, slowing things down, and just enjoying each other. It is needed.
And today, well – today I feel better because those fucking hormones that most definitely 100% contributed to my meltdown the other day just arrived. Fucking period. Fucking hormones! Honestly, I don’t need my system anymore – I wish it came with an off switch because yanno what, hormones have A LOT to answer to!
See you all soon