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End of year review – 2016.

posted by LSB December 31, 2016 9 Comments

End of year review – Hmm, apologies if this post is a load of waffle I wasn’t really aware this was a thing bloggers did, well until just now. 

So my 2016 – well from a personal perspective it has been a pretty shit year with a few nice bits thrown in. What you are about to read is exactly how my life went – nothing sugarcoated, just the truth so please if you figure out who I am, keep it to yourself – my head enjoys the space my blog creates and I’d like it to remain that way.

Personal :

My new year started off with a seriously blow. Not sure if you are a new follower, if so Hello but if you’re not, you’ll be aware of the recent loss of my dad. Towards to end of January, he wasn’t very well. He was a farmer and one evening after feeding the animals, he came up to have a sleep in his chair. Nothing out of the ordinary there except when he woke, he had forgotten he had already completed those jobs and told my mum he was off to do them. This was the start of the unusual behaviour.  

A few days later, we ended up in our local hospital to be told they thought he had early onset dementia but had to return the following day for a brain scan to confirm. I remember that feeling distinctly as I left the hospital that day. I would eventually lose my dad and the man that was there would be someone who hadn’t a clue of his surroundings and in time forget us. In a way I wish they were right, I feel guilty for feeling that but at least he would still be here. The scan confirmed something none of us expected. A brain tumour. God, I feel sick typing this – so many feelings are resurfacing. Why I am continuing? I hope this post helps me heal.  

So, that day we were told he had two weeks to live. The tumour was the size of fist of was pressing against his forehead and causing severe pressure to his brain. It was inoperable. Another test showed he also had lung cancer. So if he was completely fucked before he was a complete write off now.  Life however, had other ideas and he was accepted by a huge hospital to have brain surgery. In February, they removed it. We thought we had turned a corner. His consultant however informed us during the operation they found a second lump. It couldn’t be removed and we opted not to tell him. He had radiotherapy for his head and a few weeks later surprised all the doctors and got accepted for chemo for his lungs.  The chemo didn’t agree with him and caused him to be hospitalized with pneumonia three times. Eventually they stopped it and his quality of life slightly improved.

 

The man who was expected to die in two weeks lasted 10 months. He lost his battle on the 27th of November. It is possibly the hardest thing watching the man who was the strongest person in your life deteriorate before your eyes and no matter what you do you cannot fix them. I think that is something I will never get over. 

As well as that, my daughter who suffers from a chronic ear infection, is facing surgery soon because of neglect from her consultant. She requires complete bone reconstruction and hearing reconstruction as the infection has eaten her ear bones away and infection is in her skull. 

And, last to the hospital party is me. I had a pre-cancer scare too and currently awaiting more results. I cannot stress the importance of having a smear. It’s not sore, it takes seconds and it could save your life. As well as that, I am also facing surgery in early January so hopefully, we will all be done in January and our new year will begin in February lol.

Blog :

 

So after reading the above this is why I created Littleswitchbitch.com. A place to escape reality and it has done the job so perfectly. I threw myself in with a 110 percent and never did I except the response I have gotten. I placed no.5 in Kinkly’s newcomers list. Me. I was shocked. As well as that I placed no.34 in their top 100. So thank you again, that was and still is so amazing <3  

So many amazing companies got in contact with me and I am so grateful to anyone who replied to my emails and took a chance on someone so new in the blogger world – your time, support and kind words are so appreciated. I have sooooo many amazing things planned for my blog in the new year, some of which I’ve already started on. New companies I haven’t previously worked with are coming on board and I’m excited to see what happens. 

A big thing for us in 2017 is to get back into how we used to play. The last year put a dampener on things and it didn’t feature as much as it did previously. As my BDSM diary posts appear, you’ll get an insight into how our dynamics work and how we balance things. 

As well as all that, I take part in #SinfulSunday weekly. As someone who enjoys photography, I really enjoy being a part of it and the amazing community Molly has created. Here is to another wonderful year on there. 

So what’s next ? 

My giveaway, Eeeeeeeeep ! It will launch on Monday, January 2nd. I am super excited about it so watch this space. Fancy a hint……? It vibrates. So wonderfully. *.* 

Stats :

Most popular post : Satisfyer Pro2

Most hits from: USA

My toy favouritesSatisfyer Pro2, Lelo Ella

Toy flops: Erm, I don’t really have any to be honest. Thankfully xD

I have to mention friendship before I end my post. Star, who blogs over at blissfullyorgasmic, helped me create Littleswitchbitch and if it all flopped, I’d still be glad the site brought me our friendship. She has been at the end of phone through all of the above and I am so thankful for her friendship. Many giggles and tears have happened down the phone. As well as Star, I do often burn the ear off my good aul buddy, Sub. He blogs over at subsmissives and is a dab hand at the writing so check him out 🙂  I’m about to tell y’all a secret about him – he portrays himself as a big grump but the only thing big about Sub is his heart. Another online friend I’m glad I’ve made. As well as those, there are loads of people I’ve made friends with on twitter. You all know who you are <3 Sending my much Xx 

 

Thank you to anyone who believes in me, helped me, gave me a shoulder to cry on – it is all so appreciated.

Here’s to 2017 – I wish you all a very happy new year and all the love and health Xxx

9 Comments

sub December 31, 2016 at 8:43 pm

A mad year, ending so sadly. Hope 2017 lets you experience happiness and that your dalliances with hospitals are as brief as possible.
Congratulations on the success of your blog; belief in oneself is so strong an asset.
ummm, dunno where that ‘sub has a heart’ shiz came from though 😛

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LSB December 31, 2016 at 8:48 pm

Not so sure on the belief bit – the blog was used as a distraction but slowly, I am however starting to belive in myself more.

It was – he is no longer suffering though and I guess there is slight comfort in that.

And regards you having a heart, I see through you. Your hood only hides so much 😛 Thank you for being my friend. Here’s hoping 2017 is better for us both. Xx ❤

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Aurora Glory January 2, 2017 at 9:31 am

I hope you found writing this helpful, sometimes it does help to let it all out. I can’t tell you how many blog posts like that I have done only to be too scared to. I admire your bravery.
I’m glad to see you got that extra time with your dad and I do hope you were all able to make the most of it. I’m so sorry you have had such a sad year and I hope 2017 brings yourself and your family some joy 🙂

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LSB January 2, 2017 at 10:47 am

Awwwww thank you for such a lovely message ❤ I did question if I should post it too do I can totally understand that feeling.I am since wondering if that “bravery” is more stupidity lol. It’s a very honest post about my real life but I am glad I wrote it because it does make me feel a bit better. You should try and post something too that you have previously struggled to because it does help x

Same to you and yours I hope we all lock 2017s butt

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sole gonzalez January 9, 2017 at 4:59 pm

Yesterday I saw you in twitter telling sub that you couldn’t do any “creative writing”. (Well… somethings can be learned: I enjoy creative writing in English and I am not even English speaking). But I can assure you that you do great “reality writing”. My father is in the final stages of a cancer too. It is a very cruel illness as you could experience, because you witness them slowly becoming weaker and helpless. I send you a big hug from Spain.

Congrats for your well earned success 🙂

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LSB January 9, 2017 at 5:20 pm

First of all , Hello from a very wet and miserable Ireland x

I am so sorry to read you are going through similar. It is a disgusting disease – after going through similar, I know nothing anyone will say makes no difference but I do send you my love and hugs. I hope your dad is as comfortable as he can be Xx

Regards what you said about my reality writing – thank you Xxxxx It means so much to me. It hurt writing that post. I wondered if I should even post it. It helped a bit to write it but because of how I wrote it I questioned myself throughout the whole post. So thank you for your kind words. Xx

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sole gonzalez January 12, 2017 at 11:00 am

Writing is a bit of a … maybe not relief, but kind of put your thoughts together, becoming aware of things you didn’t notice before… I like writing, even… or even more when I’m not feeling right. My father died last night. With no pain and with the amount of comfort that was possible to achieve. I’m Ok, given his long suffering now I know he is resting.

I love your country. It’s green, rainy and cold as the north of Spain, where I live, is. Kisses.

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LSB January 15, 2017 at 12:19 pm

Sorry, I’m only getting a chance to reply to you now.

Sending huge huge huge hugs Xxxx ❤ Whatever I say won’t make a difference but please know I am thinking of you. I’m always here if you need an ear to bend. Xx

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Elliott Henry May 16, 2017 at 5:14 pm

Hi, Switch… I just saw this and hope your daughter is doing well. You too of course, but what a thing for a kid to have to go thru… I hope her surgery went well.

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